The loathsome

I watched a bunch of explosion videos on You Tube. Most were interesting. Then I got to a compilation video of all the atomic and nuclear bomb tests. I don’t know about you but after a few seconds of watching this, or any such atomic explosion I almost get physically ill.

There is something primordially loathsome about these grotesque displays of violence. Something beyond shock and awe. It is like watching photos from your own autopsy or glimpsing some awful truth about the true nature of humans. That perhaps we are a cancer and hell bent on destroying the life that gave birth to us, a reverse abortion.

We would be worse the cancer though. Because cancer is not aware of what it is doing to the body. We are incredibly aware of what we are doing. Which makes us sadistic and masochistic. Mankind is a creep in need of reform. The average human is not a bad person, but I fear there are enough bad apples out there to bring down the house. We can only play Russian roulette so long.